Melancholy

No matter where I am, whether everything is great or terrible, even when surrounded by love and happiness, melancholy is always just around the corner.
Rain? Melancholy.
A quiet day? Melancholy.
Being alone? Melancholy.
Having a great day? Melancholy.
Memories? Melancholy.
And tonight, I am alone, its raining, I am in love, and I'm melancholy. There's no helping me, I'm telling you.

Rain

I've just studied for 5 hours straight, my bed is covered with books and papers, notes, my cat lying amongs it all. Nothing makes sense anymore, Im so disorganised. I have the oil heater burning, the flats so cold.

I normally love winter, the rain. I suppose its good weather for studying really. I'm mopping around the house in one of Davids old woolen jumpers that he left here, long sox & a woolen hat.

Im too tired to cook, think I'll just wander down to the chippee if this rain ever lets up, or put some soup on to heat. Ive been sitting in the window now just watching leaves and sticks go down the gutter, funny how you can lose yourself in that & day dreams.

Another hours study and I'll give it a break and go visit everyone in cyber space...I just wish the exams would hurry up and be over